Monday, December 21, 2009

Blessed!

Blessed. There is no other word for how lucky I feel in my life.  There are waves of how blessed I feel and even at the lowest trough I am still doing really well.  Today was a plot point as my application for residence in New Zealand was approved.  I felt in my heart and in my gut, this was going to happen.  Yet, there is often (mostly too often) that voice in your head that takes over.  And I was hearing bad stories of how so many people can't get into New Zealand even sponsored by family members.  Some needed $500k in a NZ bank account before they could show up, one needed $3.5M 2 years prior to being able to show up to live.  So, yes, blessed.  I had been waiting to write more in this blog because my head began to think it was the cart before the horse.  But, at last, the horse caught up!   When the letter arrived, it was unexpectedly thin and small.  Similar to the ones you get from the college you want to be accepted to yet requires you to be more qualified.  So, I sat down to open it.  And my hands were shaking.  And as much as I wanted to skip to that last sentence, I read it one by one to soak it all in.  And I was accepted.

We are now less than two months out from departure.  As I type and Zeph researches how our residual, sentimental items will get shipped, I am relieved as few things have felt more right.  Few things I know more than to believe...some will call it faith, others will call it a leap of faith.  All I know is that if there is one thing or one person I trust to listen to whenever I have the opportunity, it is my gut.  Follow your gut.  Sometimes I'll have friends describe an uncomfortable situation and I'll ask them, "How do you feel?"  "What does your gut tell you?" The gut never lies and it always knows. 

The last sentence in my acceptance letter is beautiful.  It says, "We trust that this will be welcome news and wish you well for your future in New Zealand."  Thank you.

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